I am a midwestern born mama of FIVE! My family is my pride and joy and there is nothing I love more than going fun adventures with my brood, or even just lounging on our cosy couch at night and watching t.v. I live in sunny California with my hubby, kids, and one cat! I spend my days taking care of all of us, knitting, cooking and baking, writing, pattern designing, blogging, and going on walks. I love taking it all in, and I'm striving to live a simple lifestyle. Once upon a time I had a dream of living an off-grid lifestyle, we even bought 2 acres of land in beautiful Colorado! Those dreams were put on hold as we raise our children in a very different place...the suburbs! That is fine for now. We are going to be buying land in Montana soon, and eventually when the birds flee the nest, we will build a large family home for all the grandkids to come visit! I'm sure you can tell that family is very important to me!
Now, let's talk about this little space "The Cosy Wool". I started this knitting pattern business on January 1st 2021, just as the horrible year of 2020 was ending I felt the small voice of God nudge me to do what I have always done...knit. I have always suffered terribly from anxiety. So bad that after my last baby was born I developed extreme PPA that landed me in the hospital for days at a time. After years of finding the right medication and therapist, my anxiety was finally under control and I was able to enjoy my life more. Then of course 2020 hit, and like MANY of you, anxiety came roaring back. I was terrified of everything, I developed horrible insomnia, I gained a considerable amount of weight, and I was otherwise just miserable. Then in December of 2020 as the horrible year was coming to an end, and with my anxiety at its peak, I heard a ted talk that changed my life. My husband and I were coming back from a hike date, and we were listening to NPR when I heard Jayashri Maathaa (a monk, and spirtiual teacher) speak about two words that were giving her peace and calm during this horrible time in our history. "THANK YOU" she began saying "thank you" in her head for everything! "Thank you for the sun, thank you for the moon, thank you for this meal" etc. and it changed her life. Having gratitude is what I took away from hearing her speak, and I began saying "thank you" to everything too. How lucky are we that we are living on this earth in this time and place? We are so lucky. And I am thankful. With this new found gratitude, my anxiety started to disappear (I do still take medication!). Then I spoke to my dad around this same time, he was going on a trip to Mexico! I asked him "aren't you afraid of getting coronavirus?" he said "no". and when I pressed why, he said he is doing everything to prevent Covid (wearing a mask, staying home as much as possible, washing hands), and he said if he got it, he'd probably be fine. And if he died, he supposes it was God's will God's will. That's when everything clicked. Shortly after these two events I pulled out my yarn and started knitting. I quickly designed one pattern, and then another. Knitting is a calming and familiar activity, and when I knit, I feel at peace and I hear God's voice.
My hope for you is that you enjoy knitting my patterns, that they bring a smile to your face, and that whomever you give the item to, they also feel the love. The act of creating something is a form of self care, and creates inner harmony. I wish for you to find a life-long friend in me, and that you come back here often to be part of my community. Thank you SO much for being here and being part of my story.
Samantha Maria
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